Too Sexy For My Books

A week ago I was ready to pull the plug on too sexy and just let it go . . . . had even started drafting a farewell post in my mind and then apathy took hold and meh, couldn’t be bothered. Motivation for blogging has been at an all time low but it is starting to emerge again. I no longer have that feeling of ‘oh-this-would-make-a-great-blog-post’ that existed with the stigs upon seeing something, reading something or in a conversation but rather I still have the feeling that I need to write. Hey, I’m an English Lit major - allow me my adolescent indulgences. So that kiddies is my motivation - I need to write. Don’t care if it don’t get read. I just need to keep the prose flowing.

Initially this blog was meant to be informative and thought provoking in terms of librarianship and information management and how that crosses over into the geek and SEO worlds. Sounds simple enough given that is my current situation but no, in reality it is a very ambitious task and one that I am not able to take on at this point.

Upon being asked ‘What do you do?’ I always reply ‘I’m a librarian’. Thats what I am. I am not going to hide that and try and dress it up and say I am an ‘information manager’ or ‘information specialist’. I studied library science (although have not considered myself to be a student for a long while), I have worked as a librarian and I enjoyed it immensely, the skills I possess are that of a librarian. However whilst I identify most strongly with being a librarian I have not worked in this capacity since Aug 2006. Waaaay to long. This is one of the main reasons I moved to London - I needed to get back into real work (honestly I was going completely and utterly spare in Copenhagen with no ‘real’ job and being taught nothing new at school). I guess you could say I am a non-practicing librarian, who has lapsed for 18 months and is now seeking forgiveness for straying from the fold.

Despite writing ‘Librarian’ in clear block letters on my landing card at Gatwick (it always gets a response and a short little chat about the profession always ensues - who said immigration staff were sullen, I’ve always found them most pleasant. I digress - yet again) I have to admit I am wanting to do a little side step from the world of information retrieval and into that of search. Specifically search optimization and marketing. I have managed to be offered a project in this field (yay!) but one small project does not a career or authority make. There lies the crux of the problem in terms of the intended path for this blog and what it is in reality. I am still in limbo-land here. Have been out of the librarian work force for too long and have not been in the search realm long enough. Exist in neither sphere and am not able to speak on either with any authority.

This got me thinking. I can’t confidently speak about librarianship nor about SEO, so what can I blog about? Its not a matter of setting time aside to blog, or about getting in the mind set or similar - that has never been a problem. The problem is what to blog about? A blog without content is not a blog - it is a waste of space. So what content can I use to fill up this teenage wasteland? I ended up making a list of what I enjoy, what are my real interests and what I feel I can put out there with confidence. I didn’t think when making this list, just put down what came to mind and what I felt intuitively.

* Music

* Leadership

* Romantic Poetry

* Norse Mythology

* Medievalism

* British and Commonwealth Military History

* Russian/Soviet History and Literature

Some of my acquaintances would scratch their heads at this list and be thinking WTF? Others who know me (who really know me) will not be surprised at all. I am, at heart, a romantic and this list reflects that core.

Until I find my voice in search I am going to use too sexy as a platform for formulating and writing my ideas on the above topics (not all of them of course). Having come to this decision regarding content my mind has been on fire with blog entry ideas about leadership theory and its concepts and application.

Motivation has been rediscovered and enthusiasm found . . . just not in the expected places. Instead this motivation stems from an interest, a fascination that is at my core and has been with me for over 20 years. Whilst the blog name may now sit at odds with the content, at least there will be content.

‘Clampdown’, The Clash